There's always God beside us

I saw, i felt...
Things just go wrong
Sometimes it's right,
But as fast as the light,
Things go wrong again

I took a deep breath
And kept silent for some moment
I thought..
Why things go wrong
Then, i talked to God

Suddenly, tears just flew out
And little by little,
My pain dissapeared,
And I thought I finally found a peace in my lifetime
He made my eyes opened up,
That beside all the wrong things happened to me,
He always holds my hand even i cant see it...

Quotes of the day

"Sometimes what we want to do is running from the realities".

"With arts we can express all of our emotion out".

"If you're not satisfied of what u have in your life maybe you're not grateful enough".

"Sometimes even we have our parents and friends beside us, still there's an empty feeling inside".

"Sometimes we shouldn't just waiting n waiting for what u want , you should do an action to get it".

- just another random quotes by me that i tweeted at @cellinepiscean, while actually i'm studying now :p

A troubled heart

This is such a feeling that I don't know since when this feeling has frequently comes to my life. When it comes it's feels like an upset feeling but also combinated with a sorrow feelings Maybe it can be called GALAU in Indonesian. A feeling that frequently happens to teenagers or maybe young adults. But you know what ? If you keep this feeling for so long, it will be real dangerous, guys ! Because it would strained your own feelings and usually makes your work result not good, well it had happened to me in fact.

And now, i have just went back to school after having a week of holiday and in that whole week i just stayed at home ( of course ) , wake up - take a shower - eat - play the sims 3 - watch movies till dawn - and then sleep again ( to be honest, it made my life real flat ). After the holiday done, i realized that i'm not listening at music at all, except watching videos at youtube. Cause music is the one of the factors that can made my heart been troubled ( Galau ), well it's because i have a lot stock of  "Galau" songs. I don't know why i didn't do that activities for a week whether because i want to move on from the troubled heart or maybe i'm not intend to do that with any purpose.

Beside that, honestly i kept myself away from hearing the radio whether my favourite broadcaster was airing. But still deep in my heart i still have that troubled heart even i already tried to stepped away from some activities that can make my heart troubled. And the peak is today, my friends sang so much "Galau" songs and it made me pensived. Also it made me didn't have spirit to do such school works , real damn right ? Yeahh , maybe it's because i'm just a normal 17 years old teenager that have knew about LOVE . But at the last, that word will just make us getting our heart troubled.

" Kita galau, karena lebih sering membayangkan kemungkinan buruk, dari pada membayangkan hasil baik." -Mario Teguh

Don't give up !

You can be the smallest ,

You can be the weakest ,

You can be the worst player in the field

but when people tell you you're no good, 

and you say you should give it up

you know what to do ?

you just keep on swinging !

From the above quote that i got from a movie titled " Everyone's hero " , it's tells us that even though we or people think that we are not good at all at something that we are working right now , something that we should do is keep trying and DON'T GIVE UP ! 

Rapuh Tapi Tak Terpatahkan

Aku berjalan setapak demi setapak

Berjalan mengarungi hidup tanpa kenal letih

Untuk meraih sebuah mimpi

Mimpi yang mungkin setiap orang impi - impikan

Namun mimpi tinggalah harapan

Bak pasir yang tersapu debur ombak yang hilang begitu saja

Rasa hati ingin berteriak sekencang mungkin

Karena tertusuk duri yang menyiksa batinku hingga tertatih

Seiring hari demi hari ku jalani

Aku menjadi tak peduli,

Tak peduli terhadap mimpiku yang telah menjadi bayang - bayang ilusi

Tak peduli terhadap cibiran - cibiran yang kunjung meradang dipikiranku

Bagiku semua hantaman keras yang telah ku dapat,

Telah beralih menjadi sebuah pelajaran berharga yang membuat mataku terbuka,

Hingga memperkokoh pendirian dan keyakinanku,

Untuk menarik kembali sedikit demi sedikit tali mimpi yang lalu hampir ku genggam

Missing piece

in the darkness , there's small little light

the light was waiting for something unsure

but finally when it was dawn 

a piece of what the light waiting for was came

but still , it didn't mean anything

cause what the light waiting for didn't take any effect

the light wanna do something , but

it just really weird to start 

this piece just came by itself 

and suddenly went away by itself

without doing any effect

finally after so many times 

the light realize , maybe that piece is not good

or maybe , the time didn't accept that affair to happen yet

now the light just go anywhere and still waiting for the piece that had came before

What wise man said

If your father is a poor man, it is your fate but,
if your father-in-law is a poor man, it's your
stupidity.
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I was born intelligent - education ruined me.
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A bus station is where a bus stops.
A train station is where train stops.
On my desk, I have a work station....
what more can I say..........
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If it's true that we are here to help others,
then, what exactly are the others here for?
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Since light travels faster than sound, people appear
bright until you hear them speak.
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How come "abbreviated" is such a long word ?
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Money is not everything.
There's Mastercard & Visa.
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One should love animals.
They are so tasty.
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Save water.
Shower with your girl friend.
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Love the neighbor.
But don't get caught.
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Behind every successful man, there is a woman.
And behind every unsuccessful man, there are two.
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Every man should marry.
After all, happiness is not the only thing in life.
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The wise never marry.
and when they marry they become otherwise.
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Success is a relative term.
It brings so many relatives.
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Never put off the work till tomorrow
what you can put off today.
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Love is photogenic
It needs darkness to develop
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Children in backseats cause accidents
Accidents in backseats cause children
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"Your future depends on your dreams"
So go to sleep
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There should be a better way to start a day than
waking up every morning
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"Hard work never killed anybody"
But why take the risk !
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"Work fascinates me"
I can look at it for hours !
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God made relatives.
Thank God we can choose our friends.
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When two's company, three's the result !
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A dress is like a barbed fence
It protects the premises without restricting the view
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The more you learn, the more you know,
The more you know, the more you forget
The more you forget, the less you know
So.. why learn.
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Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, 'coz love
doesn't have to end at all.

source : http://www.anvari.org/fun/Truth/What_Wise_Man_Said.html

Finally i found a man

time passed away 

season changed 

peoples changed

but i didn't change

i still searching and searching

searching for the one , that i feel the best of the best

the best not because of the style , handsomeness or maybe the riches

but it's because deep of my heart , said it

my heart say : I've never seen a real man like that,

i've just always seen boys not a real man like this

he's a kind of respectful man , caring , and true hearted 

and i knew it too

i knew it after the first time we saw each other :)

If i could freezed the moment

Heyhoo ! abis pulang gereja mau berkata - kata dulu ahh , mumpung habis dapet inspirasi karena sesuatu  ( okay emoticon nya agak lebay tapi males buat ngubek - ngubek emoticons yaa yang penting nyerempet lah dengan mood haha ) 
okay this is it :

it's a moment

when the first time

i feel something real different

seeing something special in your eyes

but i don't know , what i just feel at the first time we looked at each other

it's not happens for once of course

to seeing your appearance , staring at you while you are in serious face

even i just can see you from a far distance

but it doesn't make any matter

till now i just don't know yet

what a smile of you was worth

but just from your eyes

words are not needed anymore for me

it's maybe a kind of weird for the world

because we aren't know each other yet

but ...

every moment we are looking at each other

i always make a wish , a hope , and pray to God

so that the time can be stopped the moment

the moment that i want always to repeat everyday

Still alone

where's everybody ?

why it could be real quiet ..

is it no one living ?

or i just stranded in a land that no one alive ?

but ...

all around me is white

just white no other colour 

even a trees or buildings

where am i ?

i'm just feeling weird of this condition

i'd never felt like this before 

then ,

i try to run and say to myself  " i can find a way to my home "  

but it can't and i still

still alone ...

Standing Alone

Standing Alone

by Chase

I can see the flower upon which my life grows, blooming into a rose.

See the hope and courage in the strength of the petals.
As long as I am, I will be.
The flower will never wilt or die.
As my life grows back, I shall become strong.
I shall become only dependent on one.
That one will be me.
I will rise with my petals high.
My life as a flower will bloom and prosper as I grow.
I may not be the pick of the patch, but I am just as beautiful as the rest.

I will stand as one, but not a lonely soul.
The tears will be far from my smile.

The long and winding road

Sometimes I see a ray of light
Glinting through the trees
Everytime I reach out my hands
It disappears from me

Traveled a long winding road
I thought would never end
Now the rays, light my path
With love sent from a friend

There you were standing strong
Beautiful smile upon your face
Encouraging me to hold on
With you I've found my place

You took a once shattered heart
With your kind and gentle ways
Opening it to love again
Tender feelings always stay . . .

source : cindy .